Sugi

I often find myself sitting on the pew at church 

     with my mind wandering.  

Now that could be a result of my adult ADHD, 

     but that would be an excuse to say the least. 

My mind wanders and wanders, 

     but then I realize the wandering slows and I am at peace.

I realize I have nothing to say,

     but thank you.

I should be praying for

     a full time job; the health of my parents, family, and friends'; a love life;

The list is endless,

     but I find myself at a place of peace.

God has calmed my heart down,

     the pitter patter of the day has become a solace much needed.

And so I pray,

     Ikigami Konkō Daijin, Tenchi Kane no Kami thank you.

     Konkō Sama, thank you.

     Mitama Sama, thank you.

Then my head hits the pew in front of me, 

     and I find myself in God's bosom.

As if my mother is stroking my hair to calm me down,

     I begin to just say thank you over and over again. 

And as my eternal mother continues to calm me,

     my eyes shut and the words thank you continue to leave my lips.

As as my eternal mother continues to stroke my hair that clams me, 

     I find myself asleep.

And as any father would do, 

     I feel a shake and I awake (look I made a rhyme).

I look up at the clock,

     and think, "Oh my, how long have I been out?"

However, I look around,

     and everything looks so clear.

And in front of me is my Universal Parent:

     Ikigami Konkō Daijin, Tenchi Kane no Kami. 

I smile.

I say thank you once again.

I stand.

I leave the worship hall feeling renewed;

     my heart at peace with the world.

Home.

"Sugi, come here only to give thanks." (I Ogihara, Sugi 28)